第一名还是最后一名不重要，最重要的是有没有抵达终点。

I've been working like a zombie lately, not enough sleep at all for 2 weeks. Yeah, according to a friend and also a colleague, the very first "zombie" movie that was produced in the world, was actually not for the sake of scaring people and biting people. In fact it was actually to portrait the very living people in the city, living as good as a dead body without any meaningful purpose, living is for the sake of work and money. I was really amazed by this idea, zombies, and people, just right. Luckily, I'm not one of them. Never. Out of the zombie topic. I can't remember was watching drama or movie, it says, "No matter how busy you are, such things that are more busy then your heart never exist" It is so true, can't deny it one bit. No matter how busy I am, I just can't stop thinking bout the one that matters most in my heart. It is always on top of everything. Can't help it. But because of it, "just like a lightning strike inside my chest keeping me up at night", that's a good thing cuz I can work all night long. Need time, God knows how long. Work hard, play hard. Say cheers.

 Words don't have the power to hurt you. Unless, the person who said them means a lot to you

It's raining.

I've been dreaming a lot in my sleeps lately, making my eyes get tired easily in the day.
Trying to finish up something. A promise to myself to make something good, have stop doing it for quite some time, now is time to start again.

期望变无望

期望变无望，真的很痛，很sien，什么懒都不想做。工作的东西看都不想看。

还有一个礼拜就过年，这种心情烂到对过年没感觉。

在房间呆着，拼命loop歌，自给唱给自己听。心里一直很想冲出去外面，可是又没有目的地。

想抽烟，可是对自己发过誓要戒，虽然已没有意义。 有个朋友还说，“为她戒什么改什么这种东西的想法，错了 ！ 还错到很离谱 ！ 她们是不会为这种东西感动的，最多只是一点点罢了 ！改什么戒什么都是为自己做的，要做回自己最重要 ！”

Haiz。。。。 haiz。。。。

今天是她的生日，蛋糕前几天就定做了。 所以昨晚就随便送给了 在 Kepong K.Gallery - Moe De Cafe，穿着紧身旗袍 的美女服务生们。我还坦白地说，

“我失败了，这蛋糕没意义了，我拿着不懂要怎样好，就给你们吃吧。”

她接过蛋糕，增大眼睛看着我，不知怎么反应。 我也不等她反应，

“不用谢我啊，bye ！”


她在哪里，在做什么，我还是想知道。


知道自己做了个白痴，傻海，虽然结果是好像被刀插, 可是这就是我要做的东西,  这就是我。

我甘愿。


2012，来啊

我还是   Young， Wild， &   Free

Bye Bye。